Well omg.. TODAY was fuckin crazy!!... it was like 60degress out.. and Jason and Marcus decide its 98degrees and wanna have a damn water fight lol... so me sarah and jenn are jus chillen on the porch minding our own buisness..and out of nowhere come their dumbass wit water ballons and like bomb us.. we was pissed.. but they ran so we couldnt get um back or nuttin so we jus sat ther.. we didnt ever get that wet becuz they had cheap ass water ballons and they didnt break right.. but anwyuways.. alil while later they come back and this time they brought this big ass water gun.. and this time we all got soaked we was all so pissed.. especially me cuz it was so cold.. and i had it in my eyes and it was burning and i was the waterest out of everyone.. but finally we got them back and soaked them and then they was complaining about how cold it was lol..paybacks a bitch!!.. but anyway. after tha i came in the house and took a shower and shit.. and cleaned my room so i can have ppl over tomorrow for the 1st time in over a month! YAYAYAYAY!! i am so happy llol.. but anyways.. tme and stephanie got into it today.. she dont even wanna fuck wit me cuz i got so much shit on her.. but yeah im nice so ill keep my mouth shut.. but yeah we dont talk anymore.. well atlest for now.. shit will blow over but until then fuck her.. but yeah anyway.. this whole weeked after skool i jus basically been chillen wit jenn and sarah.. not doing much.. seeing jason here and there.. i cant wait till tomorow.. MR. OBORING wont be in skool and i get to have ppl over its gonna be gggreat!!!!... and next week 4-20 is coming up! Yess!! imma get high.. were gonnna smoke it up!! get blazed lol.. My cousin is coming intown on Saturday so yeah i get to see her..and thats about all., the news i have for yall on the fabolous life of terricka today lol.. Holla!!...

I dun even kno wha how i feel..
me and jason got in a lil agurement type thing.. god i want to be able to spend time wit him again it sucks so bad i swear.. well let me start from thursday i dun remember wha i did that day so w.e but one friday after skool i came home did nothing then later went to jasons chilled dere till like 9 came home and me and mom went and got Ice cream chilled the rest of the night and then went to bed then on saturday did nothing hung out wit jenn and sarah den went to jasons for abit then left went back to jenns got high.. went to sleep den dis morning woke up came back to my house went n got high again and then went to rockys and then i came home took a shower dryed my mom hair and now im chillen my Uncle Jerry is here right now *blah* and me and jason had words my sisiter is acting like she fuckin lost her damn mind and she is gettin on my last fucking nerves god i am bout to go crazy  I miss my boo lol.. i say that like all da time but my sister is tryin not to make my mom trust me even less by tellin her all this shit.. its pissin me off i wanna kill her.. but n*e-way i am about to go cuz i am so fucking bored and theres nuttin more to say I love jason </3

Oh lord!!!
I got bad fucking cramps right now..
REALLY BAD...
but anyways...yesterday was a really nice day.. I mean it was hott out it actually felt like spring for the 1st time!!... no rain i was so happy.. i spent most of tha day outside me and jason got high 1st lol... and then Sarah and Jenn and jason came over and we call chilled most of the damn day.. and then today i went to Rockys wit Sarah got jenn went to CVS went back to Jenns got high.. went to eat AGAIN.. came back and then walked to my house walked by the place where dey play Basketball in my neghiborhood and seen jason walked wit jason sarah and jenn left and then went with jason and we walked around for awhile chilled.. then i walked him half way home came back to my house chilled.. talked to Stephanie cuz she left skool ealry so i didnt see her in school and then took and shower now i am writing in here and going to bed lol.. how very interesting.. but anyway i took like 4 pain killers and i still feel like i am dieing so i am out ill holla later Much love... niggahs!!... I love jason x3

Geez.. i am so madd..
I miss jason so much and i NEVER get to see him anymore.. i dont understand how my mom can do this shit to me... its like she doesnt even care.. there barely anything left for her to take away from me.. I cant have my baby over so i basically never get to see him I cant have any friends over so i ALWAYS have to go over there it jus sucks so much.. god...  but theres nothing i can do about it my mom is jus a biiitch..
But anyways.. well yesterday i didnt do any thing i jus watched Jeremey all day and then me and jason got in an agurement and i threw a glass at him and it broke in like 1million pieces and then i left and went to Stephs.. and got ready there then came home and got sum money and went to the mall.. then later came home and chilled ALONE cuz no1 is aloud over )o: but yeah anyway... jason called and we talked and things were better...
So then today jason promised me he would go to this Easter Egg  thing that i had to take too with me.. But at the last min he couldnt so i had to take steph.. but we went and sat in the cold for like 3hours over sum fucking BULLSHIT.. they sung about god and shit and finally i had enough and i left it wasnt even fucking worth it THERE WAS NOTHING IN THE EGGS excpet like 9 of them... and there was like 200 kids there.. it was sum fucking bullshit alot of ppl left... but after we dipped outta there me and steph went to Rockys then stephs grandma picked her up and took me home.. and then my mom came home (well later) and i went wit her to Ci Ci and we meet Tammy there and then we went to the Dollar Tree.. and then my sister meet us at the dollar tree and we all left and my sister HAD TO FUCKING HAVE A BAGEL.. so we had to go to sheetz to get the fucking shit.. and we got it and my mom fucking made us wait in the car for 10MINS.. while she had this fucking sceretive converstation outside of the car with Boochies mom.. I AM SO FUCKING PISSED.. i never get to see jason at all and she jus fucking makes it worse...
Tomorrow i am supposed to go with my mom to my pappys for Easter shes gonna be pissed at me but i am not fucking going.. I dont feel like dealing with that bullshit.. I am not going i am so fed up.. God.. i hate always feelin this way.. i wish my mom would stop doing this shit i dont think she ever will tho.. i dunnoo... its really pissing me off tho even tho its not like she FUcking cares cuz shes a FUCKIN BITCH... but anyways i am going to be out and wait by tha phone for jason to call me becuz i cant call him and my mom is a fuckin bitch and made me miss his 1st call already i hate her so much.. Ill holla later guys...

Its Spring Break
Well since spring break start i havnt done awhole lot.. but before Spring break on Tuesday i went to school and then came home and then later me and jason hung out for like 1hour but he has been being an asshole lately all he does it be up Marcus's ass i think its cuz there for awhile all i was doing was being around Stephanie.. that shit really pisses me off.. and i love him so much i wish my mom would get over the bullshit and let atlest him come back in the house cuz he didnt do ANYTHING... but anyways.. after school and after jason left after is 1hour visit.. my mom went to work and boochie left and all that so then Stephanie and David came over and they were here for awhile and david was being a fucking dickhead he was fucking messin up my room but anyways they finally left.. and then i jus got a shower and bascially went to bed.. and then on Wed. well yesterday.. after skool i came home and my mom came and got me and took me to see my grandma she is in the Hospital its nothing serious tho.. thanks godness cuz she means alot to me and i dont know where i would be without her she bails me out of alot of shit when my mom won't but anyways.. then alil while later we came home and i didnt NOTHING all night then at like 11:30 jason got back from Baracudas and he came over and stayed for like 3mins.. it was dumb yeah... I dont know whats going on with us anymore i am scared we are growing apart.. he said something to be about it today.. our relationship has alot of stress on it we have to sneak around to see each other and shit and its really hard it makes us agure.. i am so worried i wish i could fix things but i cant.. i think we will be fine i jus have to wait and see.. but back to my week.. today i didnt do anything jason was over for alil while and i cleaned the house trying to suck up to my mom so maybe oneday she will get over all this.. but who knows when that will be..but yeah.. after my mom came home jason left and then me and my mom went to TOYS R US.. WAL MART and MCDONALDs.. we had to get easter stuff to make easter baskets.. or w.e.. Easter is right around the cornor and we was goin to see my grandma but we didnt cuz it was too late by time we was done and shit so we came home and i havnt done much since i been here.. i miss jason.. gosh.. but anyways im going to be out ill ttyl...



Girl-Destinys Child
[Verse 1 Beyonce]
Take A Minute Girl Come Sit Down
And Tell Us What's Been Happening
In Your Face I Can See The Pain
Don't You Try To Convince Us That You're Happy (Yeah)
We've Seen This All Before
But He's Taking Advantage Of Your Passion
Because We've Come Too Far
For You To Feel Alone
You Don't Let Him Walk Over Your Heart
I'm Telling You

[Chorus]
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And You Needing Someone To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Want You To Know That We Love You

[Verse 2 Kelly]
See What You All Don't Know About Him
Is I Can't Let Him Go Because He Needs Me
It Ain't Really Him It's Stress From His Job
And I Ain't Making It Easy
I Know You See Him Bugging On Me Sometimes
But I Know He Be Tired He Don't Mean It
It Gets Hard Sometimes
But I Need My Man
I Don't Think Ya'll Understand
I'm Telling You

[Chorus x2]

[Bridge Michelle]
Girl, Take A Good Look At Yourself
He Got You Going Through Hell
We Ain't Never Seen You Down Like This
What You Mean You Don't Need Our Help?
We Known Eachother Too Well

[Chorus x2]