SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE SCARED OF
1. Being alone
2. Dying
3. Losing my loved ones..*jason*
4. Never being happy
5. Not having a dad for my kids
6. Snakes, Spiders
7. Bats
SEVEN THINGS THAT MAKE YOU LAUGH
1. My jason..
2. Stoner Brooke
3. Sarah..
4. Comic View
5. Blue Collar Comedy Sometimes
6.  boys cuz their are so retarded
7. lol i dont know really i laugh at everything
SEVEN LAST MOVIES YOU'VE WATCHED
1. Dirty Little Secert
2. I dun know
3. I dun know
4. Hide and Seek
5. Saw
6. Halloween
7. The Grugde
SEVEN THINGS YOU HATE
1.  People who cant mind their FUCKIN BUISSNESS *COUGH*
2. Lies, unless its a lie not to hurt your feelings
3. Drama
4. School
5. Periods!
6. MY LIFE
7. Bush..
SEVEN THINGS YOU LOVE
1. Jason
2. My friends
3. smokin
4. being with the people who make me laugh and smile!
5. Drinkin
6. Talkin on da phone
7. Doin wha da fuck i want 
SEVEN THINGS THAT YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND
1. Boy of course..
2.  Why people are so bored with their life they have to but into mine
3.  Why weed is illegal lol..
4.  Why people elected bush again
5.  The government
6.  My mom
7. just about everything..
SEVEN PLACES YOU'D RATHER BE
1. id rather be with jason right now..
2. Sleeping in my bed
3. getin drunk sumwhere
4. gettin high sumwhere
5. movies
6. with sum friends chillen..
7. with jason
SEVEN THINGS ON YOUR DESK
1. computer
2. Pens & Pencils
3. Cup of coke
4. printer
5. Cellular
6. keys..
7. chips
RIGHT NOW YOU ARE
1. bored
2. missing jason
3.  lonely
4. typing
5. sleepy
6. readii for skool to end 
7. BORED
MY APPEARANCE
1. Height....5'5.
2. brown hair
3. Brown eyes
4. im jus me...
5. best dressed biitch u know! lol
6. Tan..
7. mixed black and white
SEVEN THINGS I PLAN TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1. Have kids
2. Go to College
3. Visit New York again..
4. Get da fuck outta hagerstown
5.  be wit my hubby.. even if we arent married jus together forever is fine
6. Get a good job and make lots of money
7. get fucked up on my 21st b-day lol..

Well sorry that i havnt been writing.. i really am sorry about that.. its jus i hate the way my journal is lookin now its pissing me off i wanna start a new journal but i like dis one so much.. i havn't really been busy.. i dunno.. I miss jason so much.. hes gettin locked up today or SUPPOSED TO BE... he gets out in 30days i think.. i miss him so much its drivin me crazii.. never been away from my boo boo dis long.. im kinda glad hes gettin da shit ova wit tho.. skool is out in about 4 days or sum shit i am so happy.. skool is so GAY.. my mom is going to VegAs for a week.. Yes! Party !! LOL.. im lookin forward to da beach and everything dis summer RSV is already in.. were DEF going.. so i am happy.. i needa vacation trust me.. Nothing much hs reallyt been happening.. jenn is madd sick.. shes gettin better tho.. but me and sarah been chillen alot.. gettin high like every night lol.. da other night dere was a fuckin bat in my house lol.. dat ish was CRAZY.. lol im prolly goin to hershey park toimorrow wit christina.. if my mom dont go im jus going wit her.. but i dunno yet.. i really should stay after for science and do my make up work.. i gotta 58% in da biitch lol.. oh well fuck science.. lol..but im about to go.. im bored like shit.. ill holla.. sumtime

We belong Together-Mariah Carey (i love dis song)
I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I did nothing
I was stupid
I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself

I didn't know you
I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling now
Now that I don't
Hear your voice
Or even touch or even kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
What I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side

We belong together
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
Baby nobody else
We belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you're all on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me
'If you think you're lonely now'
Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface

I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
Crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life baby

When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody else
We belong together

Alot has happened since I last wrote...
On thrusday- I woke up went to school then came home.. went wit my moms and got sum shoes n shit.. and then came home.. chilled..then i went to jasons house for alil while.. god yall dont understand how much i miss bein wit dat boy.. we will make it thru dis shit tho i know we will..
On Friday-I went to school came home.. chilled.. didnt do much.. then at around 5 or so my anut Chemise came and picked me up.. My aunt is cool as shit.. this was the 1st time i met her.. but i am glad i did meet her.. she is really young and she is cool as shit.. i think me and her will def. start talkin more in the future.. but anyways.. my aunt does Hair so we went to this guys house and she did his hair.. then we left and we went to my great aunt tooties house.. and like everyone was dere.. My aunt debbie.. My aunt tootie of course.. My dad!!! and my dads girlfriend.. and then boochie came over.. cuz boochie knows my family better then i do he is wit dem all the time and i barely see them.. but yeah.. he was dere.. too.. and Chemise has a daughter and she looks after her nephew Travon... and they was dere too.. it was aiight. i got to see my dad.. which doesnt happen often... My aunt did my hair.. it looks madd cute...but finally aty like 1 we went home.. well to Chemises and i stayed the night there
Saturday-IT WAS THE BEST DAY EVER.. IT WAS MY BABIIS B-DAY!!... AND IT WAS ALSO OUR 9MONTH ANNIVERSERY.. AND ALOT IT WAS 1YEAR SINCE THE 1ST TIME WE MET.. .. i came home in the morning.. seen my babii boy for awhile.. i still have to get his damn present GOD!!!.. but anyways. then me and kayla and sarah and jenn got high and went to the carnival.. chilled dere.. IT WAS WHACK LIKE CRACK.. so we came home.. kayla went home.. and i went to bed ((ME AND JASON BEEN TOGETHER FOR OVER 9MONTHS AND WERE GOING STRONG!))
Sunday-i woke up.. it was mothers day or w.e said happy mothers day to my mom.. went to jasons and stayed there all day untill 8:30..
So i have been pretty busy.. not awhole lot of time to write in dis joint.. but My babii is still on house arrest.. i dunno whas goin to happen.. i will find out dis wed. tho.. i miss being wit him.. but im glad i got to see him dis weekend.. i kno we will get thru dis shit.. i love him so much and i will be by his side no matter wha u know.. bUt yeah.. it was good seeing my dad.. and hes talkin all the shit about how he wants to start seeing me more.. and he wants me to see my sisters he said they been askin about me.. i hope so i wanna see them alot.. so hopefully hes not jus sayin that shit this time.. i kinda believe him becuz he called me last night which really surprised me.. i didnt think he would call im not gonna get my hopes but maybe this time he will do the right thing.. i guess we will see.. He says he wants to meet jason LOL... wow.. i dunno about that.. I learned over the weekend tho that the world really is a small place lol.. i found out that my anut does jasons hair.. and he would talk about his girlfriend but never said her name.. lol.. so jasons family and my family know each other! aint that great lol? yeah.. me and my mom havnt really been getitn along.. i mean im hardley ever here but when i am me and her find sumden to agure about.. yeah.. our mother daughter relationship is great.. things will be fine and then i always scerw it up.. i feel like im a big disapointment to her.. i dunno.. but yeah anyways.. i think that jus about sums up my life.. ill write more when i have sumden new to talk about.. Ill try to get back to yall more often.. Much Love always..

Sorry its been awhile since i wrote.. i 4get alot of wha has been goin on lol..

but ill let u kno wha i remember. lol.. well since the last time i wrote i 4get what i did all that week until friday. On friday i went to Kaylas house chilled and got high, then saturday i stayed at kaylas like all day and then got high and drunk dat night.. Kayla was so DOoOoNnNNEEee omg.. i finally came home sunday.. got high wit sarah and i was so fuckin high lol das da highest i ever been.. lol.. i met sum new friend lol.. mY NiIIigGgGgaHhS!... but yeah finally went to sleep or w.e den da next day woke up and went to skool came home chilled wit sarah and my niggahs.. dey left.. den Tuesday came home.. got to see jason in the 1st time since forever it seems like lol..i guess its not sceret now.. hes on house arrest!! god i miss him so much..but after i can abck i chilled wit my niggahs till like 10 got high and almost went to fuckin jail lol.. dat ish was CRAZIIIII.. and then today i came home and got high.. lol.. so i am barely ever even home anymore im usually jus chillen outside or sumden.. mOstly gettin HiGh! lol.. das all dere is to do i dun like bein in my house.. My mom was sure to let me kno today that she thought i was a whore and i was fast which really made me happy.. she wonders why i am depressed and shit now... But AnYwAy.. i try my best not be here as much as possible.. it makes me feel so much worse about everything.. god.. life has been busy.. But i MiIiIisSsS My Jasie so much.. but for now im about to be out.. im not even sure whas good for tonight now.. but ill holla sumtimes and let yall kno whas good!!...

I'll carve your name in the bullet so everyone knows you're the last thing that went through my head _Jason_

Well ayo.. its 4-20 da best day of da year!~