well alot of stupid stuff has happened... monday i see jason for alil while.. then tuesday i didnt see him at all and then wed i got a call from him and some shits goin on... to make a long story short im not gonna get to see him for a while prolly.. my dad was calling me everyday for awhile.. and then he stoped cuz he said he got paid and he wanted to take me to dinner and he would call me the next day at 4 and he never did.. he hasnt called since that day i guess he feels embarrassed for bein a ass.. i would too..  im slowly countin down the days until i get out of skool 16days as of today cant wait.. IM GOING CRAZY IN THIS HOUSE.. geez.. these children pluck my fucking nerves.. and i miss my babii so much.. everything reminds me of him.. its crazy.. i dunno wha to do without him.. its only be 1week since i last seen him and im already missing him i dunno if i can take not seein him for a long time.. he calls me every night tho.. always at the same time.. but things arent the same and i jus wish they could be.. i kno we will get thru dis tho i kno we will.. On friday i didnt do much chilled wit sarah and jenn.. got high.. chilled wit sum other ppl.. den came in talked to jason and went to bed.. then saturday went to kaylas got drunk got high.. had fun.. lol tha usual when im at her house.. im movin in over the summer its finally.. but anways.. i came home on sunday.. did nothing.. talked to jason went to bed.. and then today i went to skool came home and i have been sleepin ever since.. shits madd boring.. wha i am supposed to do.. i miss my babii more then anything.. geez.. i dunno wha to do.. i jus hope shit works out.. das all i have to say for today i will holla later.. much love